At a PD last school year, the instructor showed us a video of Rudy Francisco performing his poem “My Honest Poem.” I was so moved by the poem, that I did an imitation activity with my students where they used Francisco’s structure to create their own honest poems. Because I am a writer, too, I created my own version of “My Honest Poem.”
It is honest and, as with any good writing, a work in progress. After all, what is true right now may become false in the coming years. Enjoy.
“My Honest Poem” by Megan Thompson
I was born on May 24th, Gemini by the stars
I think that means I have a split personality
I’m 5 foot 4…and a quarter. I weigh, well, if I’m being honest, more than I did in high school
I don’t know how to boil an egg, and I’m very glad that my husband does all the cooking
And adventure seeking.
I compete with cell phones for attention on the daily
From my students, my own children,
And even the man who is supposed to put me first
I like Dr. Pepper…a lot.
But I know I shouldn’t have it too much because it is bad for my teeth, my heart,
And my self-confidence
I find myself consumed with what others think and say about me
When, in reality, most days I don’t even know what I think of myself
I thought walking up on hushed conversations and guilty expressions would end when I graduated high school
But then I became a high school teacher
I’ve been told a million times that I’d forget my own head if it weren’t screwed onto my body
I live in a society where I feel the need to apologize for growing up wealthy with two parents who are one year away from 50 years of marriage
I contemplate my word choice heavily- I already regret the choice to use “wealthy” two lines ago because I know you are judging me
Some days, I’m a really good teacher, others, I’m a stellar wife, and still others, I’m mom of the year
Never am I all three at the same time
Because the focus can only be spread so thin before it becomes transparent
Like concrete, I crack under pressure
I’m not afraid of loving too hard
But I’m terrified of losing too much
I’ve never had a detention, but I have a stack of office referrals signed by me
I write myself up for not being the mother my mom is
And falling short of perfection
I secretly despise Pinterest-perfect moms who seem to have it all together
I’m embarrassed that my 5-year-old lies and eats candy for dinner sometimes
While my 3-year-old sucks her toe and talks really loud at all the wrong times
I love my girls with all I have
And worry daily that it isn’t enough
Hi, my name is Megan
I enjoy reading, warm summer days,
And blaring music through my car speakers
I love the idea of a sunroof, but hate the heat it lets in
I allow myself to cry too often
And regret my weakness the second the tears hit my cheeks
My hobbies include wallowing in self-guilt, starting projects I will never finish,
And treading water in this sea we call life
I know that life is chaotic now
And that I will miss the chaos someday
I know that if God puts me to it, He will help me through it
And what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.